April's Journal

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on the outside
Name: April Yura
Birthday: April 11th
School: still don't know if I want to go. Maybe to learn Japanese.
Minor: N/A
Major: N/A
Current Location: Apt from hell (I didn't know hell would be so loud with Mexican music blasting T.T)
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: Black/dark brown
Righty or Lefty: ambidextrous
Zodiac Sign: Aries

on the inside
Your Heritage: Gook through and through (lol I speak crudely I know)
Weakness: Steak???
Goals: Singing or mangaka XD
Regrets: Having started dating too soon. I feel like men are the end of the world... and I feel like I should have focused on loving myself before trying to love someone else.
Change one thing about your life: to get my butt into gear...
Relieve Stress: biting on things like jerky or just about anything XD
Hardest thing ever dealt with: Grandpa's passing
Things that upset you: doing things I don't like doing... like my current job and lifestyle

yesterday, today, tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: I'm not late for work am I...???
Your bedtime: 12AM to 1 AM
Your most missed memory: hanging out with my buddy Christopher the Gopher

your picking
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Mickey D's
Single or Group dates: either
Lipton Tea or Nestea?: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: niether XD

do you?
Do drugs? no
Have a crush: A lot of fictional anime and video game dudes... yep.
Think you've been in love: Yes
Want to get married: Kind of...?
Believe in yourself: Sometimes
Think you're a health freak: bwahahahhahaa

in the last month
Drank alcohol: nope
Gone to the mall: nope
Eaten Sushi: yes!!! Happy cat is happy XD
Gone skating: nope
Dyed your hair: nope
Done something exciting: I saw the Seattle Symphony play Final Fantasy: Distant Worlds and saw Nobuo Uematsu!!!

have you ever?
Played a stripping game: I think once with my friends when I was 11?? LOL
Gotten beaten up: *sigh* yes, kind of anyway
Changed who you were to fit in: kind of XD
Hid something from someone: yarp

getting old
Age you're hoping to be married: early to mid 30s
Age to start having children: No thank you...
Want to travel to: Japan and Egypt XD

perfect mate
Best Eye Color: any
Best Hair Color: anything but neon or pastel colors O.o
Short or Long Hair: whatever he looks good with

what were you doing?
1 minute ago: washing my face
1 hour ago: eating a really late dinner with the 'rents
1 week ago: walking through a hotel with Aimee and Chris
1 year ago: working T.T

finish the sentence
I LOVE: rice
I FEEL: unfulfilled
I HATE: stomachaches
I MISS: my teenage creativity
I NEED: to also go to bed XD

Saturday night I went to watch the Seattle Symphony play Final Fantasy: Distant Worlds. Nobuo Uematsu was there in the flesh!!! He was dressed in... grey and white shrine gear??? Lol and he had long hair and wore a blue and white bandana XD He is full of awesome. Looks like he may have gone to Pike Place Market too, because he wielded none other than.... a fish.... A rubber fish, but a fish nonetheless. In a concert hall XD Anyway the symphony was amazing. I forgot what song they opened with, but everytime they played a song from FF8 or 7 I teared up XD And they played the game sequences on the big screen, so watching 8's ending CG's with Laguna and Raine made me bawl XD It was a really amazing concert. And I'm sure the orchestra never had such a geeky, rambunctious crowd; we must have given them applause after EVERY song. And two standing ovations XD Near the end, Uematsu-san and Mr. Arnie Roth (the conductor) threw the fishes into the crowd XD Well, rather Uematsu-san threw one into the crowd, and Mr. Roth threw it behind him at one of the violinists LOLOLOL

I want to go again!!! I want to hear the music again. Grand band version of the chocobo theme XD Epic "Man with the Machine Gun" (I loved how they played his limit break sequence!!! And the Dollet battles for the battle theme!!!) and the Final Fantasy 1, 2, and 3 medley. I never played 6, 11, or 12, but now I want to. I just wish I had the time to play looooong RPG's again. I'm sure I can fit it into my life somehow though XD And Uematsu is returning for FF14!!! The games just aren't the same without his music!

And today we had the epic swap meet!!! I got a few awesome trades out of it too (thanks for the blouse and the skirt Aimee!!! I've been looking to get that blouse in white but black is equally as awesome too XD). And after seeing the Meta candy house skirt in person, I am KEEPING it. The elastic on the waist is AMAZING. Not like Baby's TIGHT TIGHT waistbands (who REALLY has a 24 inch waist anyway???). Which gave me this great idea for my pettis. I'm going to take out all the elastic and replace them with ribbon, so I can just tie it onto my waist. And not die from lack of hair XD And loosen the ribbon when I eat a lot O.o

So now I gotta pre-register for InnoSera, pay my cell phone bill and my camera bill, and I'm done with payments owed for the month. Hurrah! XD

I sent my app for the lolita fashion modeling at InnoSera AND finished my entry for the paper doll contest.... I'M EXHAUSTED!!! (Note to self: GIVE YOURSELF MORE TIME TO WORK ON THINGS SO YOU DON'T GO NUTS ON DEADLINE DAY!!!) But I have a reason for that XD I didn't know about the contests until like a week ago...

I'll be crossing my fingers for both XD I wonder when they will post winners for the contests? Since pre-registration ends soon...

Tohoshinki twitter accounts....

(my sister forced me to follow them, I swear!!!)

But I'm putting these up there for the interested people ^_~

Junsu
http://twitter.com/dolphinking

Yunho
http://twitter.com/TVXQUKnow

Micky
http://twitter.com/TVXQMicky

Jaejoong
http://twitter.com/herojaejoong

Changmin
http://twitter.com/MaxChangmin

Jaejoong and Changmin's tweets totally made my day lol.

I just read on the Innocente Seraphim website that Ms. Cholong of Elfdoll and PasuLau of Doll Heart will be attending!! I'm so excited XD Now I just have to pre-register...

It's bad for my wallet because I love Elfdoll (that's why my first doll choice was Soah!) AND Dollheart has some of the most amazing clothes for dollies!!! I probably won't be able to buy anything (I don't even have room on my puny little credit card, huhuhu T.T) but at least I have a nice enough camera to take some awesome shots XD Now I need to make my purses into a DSLR camera suitable carrying case! Now how can I go about doing that with Josephine... (that's the name of my bunny bear bag, ahahaha)

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Doing this from x0g33k0x's journal XD


MEME:
01. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their livejournal.
02. Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper.
03. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this. The point is to see what you had on.



It's Spike Spiegel of Cowboy Bebop fame. I'm using it because I like the anime. I'm also using this because Spike is hot. I have a thing for tall, fictitious men with long limbs. His gaze kills me XD

and shining and cloudy all in the same day. Had a nice view of this on my apt balcony (nothing fancy, just a TINY little space with a gate on it lol)

And I might as well test out my new camera on a great view.

UGH. Just when I'm finally settling in with my first girl, they have to do this to me. It's been hard picking her eventual mate (*sigh* I swear I'm going to become one of those crazy doll people... oh wait, I already am!!! XD), all the male sculpts are still a bit too girly. And I did become the victim of Doll in Mind's minimee creation, and hopped in the Leon Kennedy group order (Resident Evil related...) So I'm hoping he's masculine and yet pretty boy enough for my tastes... BUT.

Volks for the dolpa in May, has come out with this guy:




ARGH!!! He's the perfect pretty boy arrogant cocky badass that I wanted!!! Why am I always attracted to bad boys??? And he's like over $1000 T.T I don't even have a digital camera good enough to take photos of lolita let alone dolls (not to mention I have no moola for the clothes either ;_;), and I'm already lusting after this guy. *sigh*

Well things never work out for me anyway... I hate to be negative (though I always am), but I planned at least a month in advance, and was hoping to get all my clothes in time for the convention, which is THIS FREAKING COMING FRIDAY. OH MY GOD.

My girl's body (I'm talking about a doll btw, LOL) STILL isn't here, regardless of the fact that I bought it from a U.S. based re-seller LAST MONTH and hoped to get it within a week a and a half (UPS ground takes like one week). E-mailed to ask what the hell was up (2 weeks later), and they said the average wait time is 4 WEEKS. WTF. And they don't mention this ANYWHERE on their site? Or listing? I don't even know what to say. I don't want to seem like a bitch and hassle them, but I feel like they should at least give some sort of warning saying "THE BODY TAKES UP TO 4 WEEKS TO ARRIVE." I should probably bitch to them, huh? Even if they have 100% perfect feedback. Bitches.

I bought some Putumayo accessories and Moitie stuff, one through a shopping service and the other through CD Japan. Bought them like two weeks ago (both are supposed to be shipped EMS), thought they would be here by now. Got a notice saying the Moitie blouse I wanted is SUDDENLY out of stock, but they are still in the PROCESS of shipping my skirt. ANOTHER WTF. I need them by Sunday and I'm shit out of luck. I have a backup Innocent World blouse I could probably use if the weather stays nice (but then again I will just have to use it ANYWAY even if it's cold again), but I still need the damn skirt to get here by Saturday. *SIGH* And I've got the Putumayo clothes... but I really really wanted the accessories to finish the look. And I paid for EXPEDITED SERVICE, and the girl STILL hasn't contacted me about it. And she's got a great rep on the sales comm too. Damn it all.

I just wanna go to have fun. Would it be so awful to let me look good on Sunday too? Jeez. Sorry Aimee, I don't mean to let you down, I thought I would have everything a lot sooner. Let's cross our fingers and hope everything gets here by Friday at least ;_;

On a happier note, Kappei Yamaguchi (voice Usopp from One Piece, Ranma, Inu-yasha, AND L from Death Note) is coming!!! I gotta buy a plushie for him to sign XD And I need to take pics with him. And get him to sing the Sogeking song....



AGH I gotta attend his Q&A AND his autograph session!!! AGH and I'm so poor after all these purchases ;_; I don't have ANY money to even buy a plushie (not to mention nothing left of my credit line). Maybe I can take the One Piece pop up book for him to sign... (seeing as how that's the only thing I have, but I REALLY want his autograph!!!)

Never, EVER AGAIN will I spend so much money in under a month for a con. Next time it will be months and months before the con that I will have things ready. Not to mention have an actual cosplay. Funny how I was better planned for last year's con.. but then again the time AFTER the con last year and up to this point has been UTTER HELL.

And I think I'm going to drop the karaoke contest... There are too many other events going on at the same time for me to sit around and wait out of respect for everyone to get done before or after me. If I really want to sing, there's always open mic.

AGH!!!! *PULLS HAIR OUT* (Thank goodness I have wigs...)

Yeah that title makes no sense.

But being the recent BJD newb that I am, I have managed to buy my first girl a few weeks ago! Pictures of her will come when I get some better wigs and eyes for her.

But since I'm greedy and want more, the lovely Leekeworld is having a drawing contest, with dolls as their prize (I think). They will pick 3 winners I believe, but last year when they held it, they had a hard time deciding and chose 10 (so maybe I will get lucky this year and have better chances... but then again the last year's entries were soooo good O.o I didn't enter last year's contest, because well I didn't know about it LOL)

( Cut to see the drawing XD )

FINALLY.

I'm through with it!!! LOL

Last night after we ate dinner, Brent took me to the airport. My flight had a delay because of the stupid rain, but eventually I got to LAX about 12:20 or so. Flight wasn't too bad until the end, damn turbulence almost made me lose my dinner O.o My sister and her hubby picked me up and took me to their awesome house in Silverlake.

We watched a Japanese drama called Nodame Cantabile, the first few episodes :D It's silly XD Based of a manga, so my sis and her hub tell me. But I like it. The main dude and the main violinist are hot LOL. I like the main girl, Nodame. She's silly XD And it's so typical, but I like Sakura, the TINY girl who plays contrabass LOL. If I had the money and the means, I would have loved to have gone to either music or art school. I think it would have been fun.

Anyway, earlier today around 3, they drove me to the SM Audition building. There weren't many people waiting, but there were just two girls waiting for their friend to get done with his audition. I went in after him, and the lady instructed me in on introducing myself, if I wanted to say it in Korean too, I said I would rather not, but she said we would anyways LOL. XD I was NERVOUS O.o But I managed to sing Olivia's "A Little Pain," and then she asked me if I knew one in Korean, so I sang M.C. the Max's "Tears" remake, "잠시만 안녕" ("Goodbye for a Little While" or whatever it translates too XD I sing! I'm not a translator O.o)

After I was done, she asked me if I knew any "pop" songs. Oh boy. The dreaded word. I just said, "in English or Korean?" And she said either. So I said I would sing Avril Lavigne's "Happy Ending" (I think that's the title...). I started off a little shaky but got through with it :D I wish I sang better XD OH! They ask you to dance... they play Rihanna's Disturbia (not my kind of music....) She said that they just want to see how well you follow rhythm (so I don't necessarily have to dance...) I felt like a retard, just kind of clapping and moving.

Ahahahhahahahahah.Then we did a series of facial and profile camera shots O.o GOD. I'm not photogenic at all, and my teeth are just so ugly :( I know SM is picky about looks, but then again I didn't have much confidence in my looks anyway. My sister and I were deciding what I should wear, and she said they probably like the "casual look," and of course I cringed. I don't have confidence in "casual" clothing. I feel like myself in lolita. I figure punk lolita meets between the two, so I wore my Putumayo stuff. I don't care what they think I look like, so long as I get to wear what I want. I just get irritated when someone tells me to smile, because my smile is hideous. But anyway after the camera shots, we were done! The lady told me that she would forward the application and videos to Korea, and I should hear back in a month or so on how I did (or to put it simply, whether or not they want me).

My sister was in the waiting room, and she said I did great XD The walls ARE pretty thin, before I auditioned I got to hear the guy before me singing and acting... but anyway, it's not just because she is my sister either, ever since we were little we were always each other's critic. We know our limits and strengths. She is a producer, after all :) If we were all more financially capable, I wish I could sing to the songs that she writes.

So I say for my first auditioning experience, it wasn't that bad. I WAS nervous, but overall I say I handled it well. I love singing, it's like walking or breathing for me. So it was enjoyable. I wish I could perform on stage, with bandmates. I don't want to limit myself to one genre of music... but if I HAD TO, I would pick some sort of pop rock... more because I can sing that style than I like it. If I HAD a choice, it would be visual kei. That's why I'm sending my demo to Sony Japan too. I feel like they would let me choose a style... And it would be easier to find good band mates that way. My sis and her hub are helping me record a demo so I can send that in to Sony.

Well let's just cross our fingers. Any life is better than bank life. Uncreative boring life. Poor, salary meant only to pay monthly rent life. Normal life. Not for me. I've always felt I wanted to do something... more exciting :D

So now that I am no longer as depressed about the evils of medical bills.... (better, anyway XD)

They haven't told me about what kind of payment plan they are doing, but they (as in the hospital, physicians, and radiologists) said not to worry about anything until I get further notice about the payment plan.... Well, not quite "worry;" they just said disregard the bills 'till further notice.

So that I will.

On the brighter side of life, my managers approved my February vacation! That being said, I will be spending a week in Los Angeles with my sister, her hubby, and their adorable Wasabi...


Said animal they doth torture me EVERYDAY with photos of. I need an external hard drive because of all the photos I have of her.

I haven't seen my sister since... well, Grandpa's funeral back in April. Since she's pretty much the one who raised me, I can't help but always feel closer to her than our parents... call us partners in crime if you will.

I leave on a Friday night, and get there kinda late... then the immediate following Saturday afternoon, I get to go to an audition O.O

http://audition.smtown.com/SmUsaAuditionWeekly.asp?lang=eng

Yeah. That one XD (Just in case you're wondering,

I'm tired of the bank, I'm tired of being near my family drama, and frankly I am bored with life as it is. I need more excitement!!! I've always wanted to be a performer, and so I might as well try. Asian pop star isn't really my style, but hey, maybe they will embrace my... differentness??? I want to buy BJDs. I want to buy more lolita clothes. And frankly my current lifestyle just ain't doin' it for me. I've got to try. Even though I'm short and I don't have a star look, I can damn well just put myself out there. What I do have is what a lot of people lack, and I gotta show them that unique quality. Go me dammit!!! XD What've I got to lose (but my confidence, LOL).

Oh God. That reminds me, I've never sang in front of anyone but my own family... And YouTube doesn't count (because technically I'm not performing in FRONT of anyone, they're just watching my videos). That reminds me, gotta make another video... No rest for the wicked, so they say... O.o

I've... kind of picked out a few songs... let's see how good of a choice I made XD I'll reveal those later... if I remember lol.

I'm seeing a lot of it for some reason on the comms lately. Now, I LOVE Kana's style from the Bibles, as she has that perfect balance of cute and sexy going on (and she actually has boobs...). And SOMETHING about her outfits STILL say it's lolita. Maybe it's her hair that still makes her keep the cute in an otherwise erotic look.

And to be honest I haven't liked ANYONE's attempt on the comms. I don't like seeing the overly shiny wigs... more than lolita, they look like 18th century harlots (yeah, I read too much smut...). If I had the outfits (which actually wouldn't be very hard to make...) I would totally try it (maybe after a slight tan... and when the weather gets warmer XD)

And in everyone's advice, they mention Kana XD Her voice is.... an acquired taste, but it's starting to grow on me... (after about 3 years of listening to it, LOL)

I am a crybaby. I used to be pretty tough and unfazed, but as I get a little older I realize how anything sad, happy, or emotional gets ME emotional. Movies, music, etc. But NOTHING, can make me instantly cry as much as this:



Yep. Still the best SERIES. EVER.

( Cut to save your sanity )

I was tagged by x0g33k0 to do this, so here goes!

( 16 things of RANDOMNESS!!! )

Boy that took a long time to type XD
I don't know who to tag. If you read this and haven't been tagged, then you're tagged!!! So do it XD And be sure to tell me, I like reading these things (except my own, because I already know what I'm like)

So Brent and I headed over to my aunt's for Christmas... since it's in Newcastle and the elevation is so high up, it was STILL snowing over there. We had to park a ways from the main road that gets to her house, and my dad came and picked us up (our car=beetle=front wheel drive, his car=Dodge ram=4 wheel drive XD) and took us to Aunties. We opened our presents around 11AM, man was I spoiled this year. My aunt got me a flat iron, A Candy Violet Rock'n'roll sweater, and my major wishlist item... a USB condenser mic!!! Yay XD Now I get to sing clearer for my youtube subscribers, lol. Brent gave me Eternal Sonata, some new headphones for my iphone, and the blu-ray version of Sweeney Todd and the DBZ Broly movies I haven't watched before (I hear there's a lot of Gohan and Videl moments, so bite me XD) Now we just need to get a blu-ray player XD But we were planning on eventually getting a PS3 anyway...

Brent got a nice new jacket from my aunt, and from me... well it's late. He probably won't get it until early next year. But I know he will like it :)

After presents, the ladies in the household (minus me and my cousins) were preparing brunch, and Brent went to go build a snowman (but not before we did some snow shoveling since my dad insisted he was going to do it when he JUST GOT DONE TWO WEEKS AGO GETTING SHOULDER SURGERY. Gosh, my parents are going to worry me to death. I don't look forward to them becoming seniors XD They are going to be tough... SO FRICKING STUBBORN!!!) Anyway he wanted to shovel the snow since it was about 2 and a half feet high, and my aunt and uncle have been stuck at home for like a week now (no matter how rich your cars are, it's just better to get something more practical XD A Beamer and Benz ain't gettin' through that snow).

( Ummm... back to Brent and his snowman. )

Next cosplay...???

I was still planning it ;_; Sakura Con is coming up in like.... 4 months??? It's going to coincide with my birthday (the Saturday of the con hahaha.... damn I'm getting old ;_;)

So I have several DREAM cosplays I would love to accomplish within my lifetime (and preferably while I still don't have wrinkles lol). I would love to try crossplay, but since I'm so short there aren't a lot of guys I could cosplay as (unless they are short too XD Like Himura Kenshin). I DID want to go as Soujiro Seta from the same series, and Brent was going to join me as Makoto Shishio... but I doubt I could get both of our outfits done in 4 months XD But it would still be fun to be a guy for a day or two!

Now I doubt I can finish this in time either, but if I don't spend a crapload of money, I can try to make this one (depends on if I have the patience... I can sew, but only when I feel patient XD Which is rare). Brent put this in my Christmas stocking, and so far I am hooked. The game is called Eternal Sonata! And the character I would like to cosplay as is Polka:



She's so cuuuuuute XD Let's see if I can pull that one off O.o

( And Brent will go as.... )

Electric Bill......

( .........What could the cost be for two months??? )